I have a week off of school. Yes!
Brink on the rilassamento!!!! *yawn*

I guess the world has something against me. It's all "Oh my god, her day started out well, let's fuck it up!" 
First hour rocked. We did nothing. 
Second hour rocked. We watched Gone With the Wind.
Then ten minutes before second hour was over, I got called down to the vice-principal (or whatever the dick-face is). I assumed it was about not dressing in PE. But the grade I get in that class doesn't matter. I've already got the credit. So I got two detentions for my fourth no dress. No big deal. I knew my mom wouldn't be happy though. I was already mildly pissed, then fifth hour came.
I finished a test that for once I felt good about. I may have passed it even. (Algebra II). Then I heard my teacher on the phone. "No, she's taking a test right now. I'll send her down when she's finished." I knew it was me. I dreaded what it was about. After I was done with my test I went to the attendance office. That's where Mrs. Robbins sent me. I got there and the woman said I needed another office. I had thought it was just about me being late to school a few times. Nope.
I walk in. The woman had like six or seven write up sheets on her desk... all piled up. She proceeds to tell me that I have gathered up 6 tuesday schools and 2 more detentions. And if I get one more tardy in fifth hour, I'm kicked out of the class with an F! Tuesday schools are just three hours of detention. So I'll be at school until 6:00 fucking pm! I wanted to cry so bad! I've never had anything beyond one or two detentions for not getting assignments in on time! Now all of this shit! All in one day?! GOD FUCKING DAMN IT! So I have detentions all week , week-after-next! 
And my mother is going to spaz the fuck out! I'm going to have my laptop taken away, my iPod taken away, I won't be able to go to this anime convention (the one I also missed last year), and I won't be able to hang out with my friends on friday and go to anime club! That's the only night I EVER FUCKING GET OUT AND HAVE A LIFE! GOD DAMN I'M GOING TO BE SO FUCKING DEPRESSED! 
I cried all 6th hour. I felt like shit for crying in school. and I felt like shit for getting myself in this situation. I dread the day that I have to tell my mom. I just want to sleep and never wake up. I can't deal with this!
She treats me like a child constantly and then expects me to handle things like an adult?! How the fuck am I supposed to if I don't know how?! God damn. I wish suicide wasn't looked down upon and I wish an un-successful one wouldn't land me back in Meadows.... could someone murder me? Please? I feel as bad as I did pre-meadows... or just send me there! God damn, that'd be a hell of a lot better than having to deal with this! I'd rather not fuck up my body to attempt at escaping from life. And if the school was able to see how shit like this affects some kids, maybe they'd lay off and actually listen to what we say instead of thinking we're just being smart-asses! >.<

Like I felt so bad in 6th hour. I mean, if I can't successfully carry out high-school without having a mental breakdown every year... how am I going to get through college?! If I can't do college, then I will be scum for the rest of my life. I'd rather die than me scum... so someone just shoot me... kill me or I will...

Fuck guys... just fuck it all...